to start with i need to take off my makeup and put on comfy clothes and of course it wouldn't be night time without my little weird messy bun that i always fail to make it look cute ... oh it's that time again where i look like a panda with all the mascara that melts everywhere every time i attempt to take it off and as everyday i regret why i had to put it on the first place then i remember how awake it makes me look and how bad i need that every morning... i always wonder how my skin is feeling about makeup and if it enjoys it as much as i do.... i don't know why people always make it look that we're hiding our faces behind make up or that we 're trying to cover up our flaws why they don't see it the way we do.. it's fun to put some make up on.. well i can kind of understand it since they didn't had the chance to try it they can't really judge ... ouups bad for them .. i love having a night time coffee ... i know it's weird but i m a good sleeper no matter how many coffees i have ... and yes i still hate coffee and still think that it tastes absolutely terrible but i keep having it morning and night ... it's probably the only thing that i still enjoy and hate at the same time ... i guess i m unable to decide whether i should love it or stop drinking it ... well the problem will be solved soon i guess my organs will eventually decide what's best for all ... caffeine is good for the brain and we all know that my brain is in charge of the decision making task ... oh i might just find the logical explication for this situation... whatever ... i enjoy my coffee with a different book everyday ... i m the most moody person in the whole world ... i get bored really easily ... so i need to switch up books every now and than... well let's be honest i switch up books more often then anyone could ever imagine ... i can't stick to just one story and deal with the same characters every single day ... it's really exhausting ... plus i have an unstoppable desire to read all the books i have ... all at once ... which is apparently not possible considering the amount of time i have ... so i figure it i ll just start them all and i ll figure out later how to finish them ... oh let's be honest again ... i ll may never figure it out but who cares the most important thing i m enjoying it ... and to be honest agaain i wish i could switch up real life characters i think it would be fun ... i take my time to enjoy the little details of every book i read to the point that i blend into the story...and since my favorite genre is crime and thriller sometimes i need to take a break just to look around and make sure i didn't killed anyone yet .. and of course i couldn't stop myself from asking some annoying questions i might never find an answer for like " who was the first one who came up with story writing?" he must be a genius ... i always believed imagination is the most beautiful kind of intelligence ..if you have a good imagination you can do anything ....speaking of intelligent i think the ones who invented social medias are also genius they've managed to waste everyone's time with no regrets ... and of course it wouldn't be a good night if i don't enjoy wasting my precious time scrolling on Instagram snapchat and facebook ... and remembering how miserable my life is ... the good part is that it always took me just one minute to remember that i don't really care how everyone's life looks like ... and i don't mind if someone is always ahead ... the most important thing is that i m in that same direction i chose enjoying every single step even though it's still baby steps ! well my legs r short so i guess it does make sense ... after wasting my time for a while i realize that it's getting late so i take away the phone to have some quality time.. i had this habit for a long time now and i really enjoy it... yoga and meditation .. when i started doing it i was desperate to find a sport i like and i can stick to it so i started Pilates which i kind of enjoyed then i discovered Vinyasa yoga which is a variation a yoga that is supposed to get you moving and burn calories in a softer way.. well i enjoyed it until i come to a conclusion that i enjoy more the stretching and meditation parts plus i think now that yoga is a sport that is not meant to make you burn calories it goes beyond that so i started doing night time yoga just to relax and prepare my body for a good night sleep and it works so well for me .. that 30 min i take every night to do it make such a big difference .... and here's come the real struggle going to sleep ... well i just said i m a sleeper but only when my brain decides to ... i grew up being a very creative person .. i can do the same thing with a different way every time and of course since i m a lazy person i always find out the easiest way to do it but in between i come up with sooo many creative ideas .. guess what ! the moment i put my head on my pillow ideas start to fall on me and i get overwhelmed that i can't sleep until my dose of creativity is over for the night and i wake up the next morning with a tone of ideas that i don't have the time to test and see how they really work .. which is another problem i need to fix i guess .. and for the record i almost never have dreams ... i guess i expire my creativity with overthinking and day dreaming that i don't have the energy to create more dreams ...
